linda

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 20:55:40 GMT

i officially have dreaded three-tiered abdomen grossness.
however, i do not regret this photo, haha.

p.s. think i was on the fringe of rebound-booty last night.
no way, josé... i've enough problems as is!

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 07:26:27 GMT

my own follies, embarrassing.
such intimate insects make me want to vomit.
this stress is cruel.

note to self: proof-read!

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 21:04:55 GMT

successfully identified cirrus clouds and contrails in the otherwise sunny and clear blue sky. i'm sitting on a bench, reading in the semi-shade of a lovely tree on campus. it's really enchanting.

last night, there was a burglary downstairs. a slit kitchen screen, stolen mac & compaq computer, an iPod, and an iHome, plus two cell phones were taken. yikes. so close!

prospects of going up to san francisco/modesto/norcal are minimal to zero.

considering applying to home depot and costco online. do i have a chance? i get tired of spending so much money (on food, namely. then stuff to keep a house.. clean) and then having to pester my father.

i will read more--become well-informed of the world!

p.s. made an ass out of myself by not checking my schedule, so i sat in for a couple of minutes on a classics lecture. ~embarrassing~

new goal: a daily sentence (at least)

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 00:50:54 GMT

sunday: wish i had time to stay in bed and read all day!
today: summer sesh B, school round #2--here we go!

writ50: i am beginning to wonder if i have lost any/all my people skills?
flmst46: watched citizen kane. hm.

got my own crib

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 22:54:05 GMT

but i'm still such a bay-beh!

eacs4b

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 06:41:49 GMT

"in those days i was one who wished to make a god of myself"

--1927, Akutagawa Ryunosuke

from an update may 08, 2006

Thu, 28 May 2009 09:11:15 GMT

dear world,

i believe i am coming to terms with mediocrity.

sincerely,
me."

honestly? looking back, i had NO idea. absolutely no fucking idea then.

i need to change. i refuse to have let my life's climax be so young in my life!
so i am up at 2am, rambling sad thoughts to myself. THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT.

Just a Night Cruisin' DP

Tue, 26 May 2009 23:28:58 GMT

No big

pretty standard.

Sun, 10 May 2009 21:36:36 GMT

such a rich, hidden history
so many tales heard, but not yet listened.

i love you so much.

albeit a bit morbid, i can think of nothing truer.

Books to Read

Sun, 10 May 2009 07:35:23 GMT

i figure since summer is coming on quickly,
i ought to start the list of pleasure reading books;
this is in spite of the fact that i know it might be
pushed aside due to summer session homework.

1. happens every day isabel gillies
2. billy bud.. herman melville
3. persuasion jane austen
4. beyond good and evil friedrich nietzsche
5. lady chatterley's lover d. h. lawrence

and similarly (but more likely to occur)
the movie rent/watch list:

1. rachel getting married
2. duplicity
3. let the right one in
4. waltz with bashir
~~5. milk~~ absolutely amazing movie. i almost cried. three times.

Sun, 10 May 2009 07:08:01 GMT

oh, that seismic shift of the heart.

jesusita!

Sat, 09 May 2009 07:51:33 GMT

it isn't even fire season yet!
blanket of ashes, +100 degrees?

so bye bye SB, back to simi--via amtrak
train rides are fun with a friend.

agony!

Fri, 08 May 2009 07:34:21 GMT

do i somehow manage to forget how MISERABLE seasonal allergies are?

nasal irrigation neti pot--i am not even kidding!

2nd quarter of college

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 05:00:15 GMT

done.

ahhhhh, that could have been done better.

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 10:34:40 GMT

it is 230am, the day my paper is due.
i am writing this college paper--right now.

fuck "study shots" & procrastinating!

first quarter of freshman year @ college: DONE

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 07:55:33 GMT

after six weeks of not having a phone, i've finally got one!
and i being home is SO sweet,

... yet strangely not as gratifying as i had hoped?

that is what i will be lookin' at winter quarter.

and i would like to tack that on, additionally.

hard times, a definite educational motivation booster?

FINALS!

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 06:20:50 GMT

i swear i've gained that freshman fifteen in one week~

this is it!

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 07:58:22 GMT

tomorrow (technically today)
i move into my dorm at UCSB!

goodbye simi valley, hello santa barbara!

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 23:59:51 GMT

i've lost myself again(?)

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 03:05:43 GMT

"never take it seriously. if you never take it seriously,
you never get hurt. you never get hurt, you always have fun."

selfish

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 06:29:21 GMT

i am wholly aware that i am doing this for me.
no one else but me.

i really need this.

i don't even smoke

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 13:46:08 GMT

but right now, i really just want to inhale those +4,000 individual chemicals in a single puff of cigarette.

inbetween places

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 05:50:18 GMT

?!!?!1!

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 17:34:36 GMT

oh fuck fuck fuck!
that was a 50/50 & FUCK!

recap(itulation)!

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 16:13:45 GMT

this shoddy job will temporarily have to do:

graduation: ceremony, actually listened to every word houghton said, enjoyed but simultaneously loathed kyle mcwhirter's "class 08" speech (it was a well strung together speech of lines anyone could google "graduation speech" and make up), cameron bruno streaked his speedy white ass around, the crowd cheered louder than us, walked with my biffy and managed to start a domino effect of other individuals crying, went to dinner for the first time harris&lis @ macaroni grill, thrown into a mental state of limbo

friday 13th: woke up to patrick's call to go hiking, was the sober sister for a large party of hikers on shrooms, went up to the cave & played mommy (hydrated? hungry?), experienced someone with a horrible trip, had a wonderfully quiet time while hiking back down to think about heavier things, campos (delicious mexican food, anyone?), otto's mom's place, red's BBQ @ 7 with college folks, pool hall (sleazy beer belly men & wonderful times with jukeboxes & friends), went over to tayler's to watch "dan in real life," creeped out by late night drunkards on the street, exhausted self safely arrived home

saturday 14th: i believe i actually slept in (miraculous, really), went to the gym, felt like crap, read a lot, slept a lot, went to work & had a fabulous time serving liquor & sashimi!, maritsa slept over & blockbuster trips for 27 dresses, talk til 1 and end movie at 3

sunday 15th: woke at 11 (WHOA!), read while ritsa slept, basically hung out with her the entire day, bleachers @ royal 6pm, zac came over and we three watched anchorman, talked with zac, pat & otto pick me up, smoked for the first time in i don't even know when?, had the best sleep of my life!

monday 16th: woke up, breakfast @ egghouse with pat, read, gym, tennis @ rancho park (with ritsa, tay, jon, vinh), beautiful $20 something bouquet, helped make dinner for terry harris' birthday (w/ chels & brad)

tuesday 17th: woke up early, kevin & zac come over, meet at sarah parr's, drove to paradise cove, had a wonderfully expensive lunch, beached it (it was beautiful, absolutely beautiful), drove to westlake and participated in my first political protest (against tony strickland's acceptance of >$50,000 in tobacco cash), camarillo for democratic meeting

wednesday 18th: hiked early morning in woodranch trails with zac & had lunch, got ready and left for jenny's community pool area for ethan's going away party, party moved to joe's 2-10 freeze tag, craziest game of basketball ever (i nearly peed my pants with laughter), conversations, giggles, cannonballs!, lightning, photos on cakes, knocked up!, smash bros, wonderful day.

thursday 19th: pat & otto and meeting lindsey baumbsteiger for the first time in >4 years @ natural cafe (which is now probably my favorite place to eat), out to westlake for cipolla law offices to seek job (it's already secured.. whoo hoo!), back @ otto's mom's, fight club & clouds of smoke, the hulk with chels&zac

updated june 24th
friday 20th: i honestly have no recollection at all at this point. i think maritsa and i decided to swim @ the Y. that was fun! went to work eventually, went to drey's (for her birthday celebration!) & discovered my secret ability to play beer pong, drove home at 3am.

saturday 21st: feel tired, hang out with patrick/chasen/otto, avoid jamie, go to work, go back to otto's from work, spent the night doing not much of what i remember but being sober as others were "rollin'," borrowed A&E's pride and prejudice

sunday: hardly go to sleep, wake up relatively late, pick up linna from devon's, have breakfast at devon's, go to the beach with Brelsea and Tinna, realize i was the odd wheel, had lots of fun anyways, went to red robin's & was bummed out that the veggie/garden burger is not being sold due to tomato-salmonella related outbreak, rent & watch atonement at chelsea's house.. wow, when was the last time we had a sleepover?!, proceeded to watch 6 hour A&E pride and prejudice, bake a cake, have natural cafe salad, watch "venture bros" with david/brad/chelsea (decidedly not as funny as i always hope that it'll be), feel the pangs of loneliness even more?, mull things over while watching venture bros, leave hastily to talk with patrick & otto 'til 4am